it happened a year ago

So, finals are over. yay!

I had an idea to write about the blissful feeling of realizing that exams are finished, but today im just so stoned and mellow. What happens when i get mellow?

I take the guitar and sing.

Then i decided to record one of my old songs, it was written on 26/01/08, almost a year ago.


Story behind it

Sitting by my window, alone. Thinking of decisions i have to make. As a daughter and as a.. a... - do i hav to say it? - lover. ew ew.

Long story short, i had to make a decision of staying with my boyfriend and disappoint my parents, or stop being such a selfish child and break-up. I chose to quit being a selfish child, coz my parents are the most wonderful parents dat don't deserve to be disappointed.

Listening to the crickets while absent-mindedly playing melodies on my guitar, thinking of heartbreaks that i will be facing, i wanted to calm myself. So i started to say, "i'll be fine, i'll be fine," like a silly old chant.

And then it morphed into a song.

Click here to listen.


The lyrics:

Someday by Miri Amee (an original song)

Chain-smoking to the sounds of crickets in the night
Its so calm yet so disturbing in my mind
I don't know why i'm feeling so tragic
I guess it's my fault for being a romantic

And corners of my bedroom remind me of you
I realize it's gonna be hard to get over you
I'm a wreck now but don't worry

Chorus:
I'll be fine, i'll be fine although i'm crying now
It's alright, i'll stand and fight and wipe my tears away
I'll be fine, i'll be okay although i'm dying now
It's a phase, i know i'll smile again someday
Someday

So i looked outside to find the sun is hiding
Don't know how long i've been blanketed by the shadow
Though i'm starting to find my life among the clutter
But all this heartache is just leaving me mellow


Yeah, so dats pretty much it. I dunno why i'm uploading this song, or even recording it in the first place. I guess i realize that some of my friends are going through the same things, aren't we buddies?

So i guess this song is dedicated to you guys.
You'll be fine, don't worry.

Lets just pray i can find a proper vocalist to sing my songs next time, eheuehueheue. No need to point out how off-key i sing, I KNOW. I have ears. It's kinda hard to find someone to sing at this unGodly hour. Just try to relate to it, kay??

I want comments!
Hueheuehue.

And okay, i decided to put the link to the song "love like ours" back. Sheesh. I took it away coz my friend said i sound drunk. I was gonna totally say, "Nooo, i do not sound drunk!"

But then i listened again. Yeah, my voice DID sound too pitchy and the words were slurry. I guess i was drunk. Hueheue, anyway, you guys can go here, or go back to the previous post to get linked to the song. Enjoy - at the expense of my shame.